I met with my best friend today. We still managed to have fun despite everything that's been on my mind lately. I promised her that we would have some fun right after I got finished doing something for work. I didn't want to tell her that my “work” involved sorting through St. Louis bankruptcy laws. Nobody knows I'm having such a difficult time right now. The problems started shortly before the winter. I didn't anticipate so many changes all at once. I lost a number of wonderful co-workers when things were downsized. Some of these people I'd known for years. I knew I could always count on seeing them and I could always count on them brightening my day and then, all of a sudden, they were gone. Then I got a new landlord who wasn't as friendly as the last person. Usually if I had any kind of trouble with my rent she would let me pay a week or two later. This new one has strict policies about paying everything on time, so I started falling behind.  I think the final crushing blow was that my boyfriend decided he wanted to tell me shortly before our anniversary that he didn't think we would ever reconcile our personal and financial differences. I'm trying to move in the right direction now, at least, but it's incredibly hard. Nobody else is going to pull me out of this mess.